On how I can take a hint

2 things (among many others) happened today. first, i noticed a friend who had shut down his blog started it up again. i always enjoyed reading his writing and what was going on in his life, and i was very pleased to see him start up again. second, i got a comment that someone out there in internet land said that they read my blog and, i guess, liked it. it gives me hope for the people out there, like myself, who are just bored/interested enough to use that "next blog" button to explore the internet.

i have recently thought about becoming a journalist. more specifically, i would like to possibly write for the national geographic. (insert joke about how i will never be a good writer because i can't spell and dont really like much punctuation in such informal settings as blogging.) along this line of thought, i should do more day-to-day writing. i've started keeping a journal again. journal is really a bad word for it. its not really an account-of-what-i-did-today type of thing, more along this lines of this-cool-thing-has-been-on-my-mind or funny-experience-i-had. it also has my dreams and other stuff in it. i should work on making both of these forms of writing more a part of my life.

i had a good conversation with em today about death. i basically came to the conclusion that i'm not afraid of dying and i also kind of don't think i can. i know it sounds stupid, everyone has to come face to face with their mortality at some point, but right now, i just dont see it happening. having cancer a few years back may have perpetuated this as im still alive (and with relatively little effort) and, while it will be a threat for the rest of my life, i wont die from it anytime soon (or pretty much ever as long as i stay on top of things).

i met with my high school english teacher with a couple of friends for lunch today, it was awesome, she was incredibly happy to see us all and we had a jolly old time filling her in on what we are all up to and what plans we have and how all that is going.

ive been thinking recently about my friends and how i am different with all my friends. it isnt the ones that i am most similar to that i get along with (for some reason those people are really annoying). its the people who compliment my personality and vice versa. its people who bring out a side of me that is otherwise left undiscovered. those are the people that i enjoy spending time with and look for in new people. this whole paragraph sounds a lot more cliche than i want it to but will leave it in for posterity. this is also tied to my worry about falling out of friendship with a couple of people in particular because we spend (or perhaps will spend) too much time together. i guess that is something that i will have to deal with on my own when the time comes (or if i'm feeling incredibly awesome, in advance).

now it is time for me to go read until i cannot keep my eyes open anymore, as is my custom. happy new year to everyone out there in internetland.