songs pandora has introduced me to and i like

scary kids scaring kids - empty glasses
kean - crystal ball
dishwalla
the red hot valentines - firecracker

how ok is it to have multiple personas?

I act differently around different people. I don't act the same around my flatmates as my brother as my best friend as my teachers etc. To some extent, this is very necessary. I could not get away with being my complete, crude, sarcastic, and rude self around my boss, and likewise, i can leave some of my niceties, sweetness, and hesitation when its just me and sara.

this goes for unintentional differences as well. the online persona that people exude on aim or blogs may not accurately represent their complete self, partially because people feel more open about certian topics and more restricted about others online. so should i just assume that any online character i encounter is not a complete representation of that person and discount that persona, or maybe just take it with a grain of salt. on the other hand, people write hurtful things onnline sometimes, should they get away with it just because its online and it has the possibility of misinterpretation?

likewise, shouldn't we grant people we know the ability to change themselves around others? i wouldnt expect my flatmates to act the same way around just me as they do around me and my parents. and isnt that ok? people should be given the freedom to have these different base states that depend on the environment and company.

i should be writing my paper, instead i'm playing carrie bradshaw and trying to extrapolate the events in my life to bigger questions. back to the paper i guess.

other things to say

well, its 8th week, i think at least. i'm pretty sure it is. i need to sign up for classes, my students papers are due at noon today, i definitely need to start working on my final papers and those things. grading is going to be tough, ive never had to do it before, but i've had a bit of practice now and i think i will do ok. time to break out the red pen i guess.

i dont know what classes im going to register for, im looking at the anatomy course that comes right after the one im taking now, i dont know how similar it would be, but it looks like fun. other than that, i may go down to 3 classes, but what would my third be? another bio? that sounds like fun. i might even actually have time to read my own books. that would be amazing.

i'm sure i have other stuff to talk about, but right now im going to go look at classes.

so much goodness

today i went to the produce store and got food to make dinner. i made zucchini with parmesan, apple with peanut butter, and also fresh lemonade. then pomogranates and ice cream. i also now have corn, tomatoes, mushrooms, green beans, yogurt, tortillas, apples, and pears in addition to left overs from dinner. oh and cupcakes from the other night. its awesome. it makes me really happy.

im also going to see ok go tomorrow night, im psyched.

on recent events

things lately have been good. certain things have resolved themselves with a bit (although much more than i would have liked) of time, and so i am a lot less stressed. in that same vein, im done with midterms and now focusing on preparing myself for finals. i'm trying to get a good start, its only been a half-hearted attempt so far, but i figure a half-hearted and early start is better than nothing.

im waiting for 15 minutes for my students to come to a special little lesson im giving on how to find research articles online. it was helpful to the two students who came to the last one and more are coming now. i'm proud of myself. i also found out that i will be able to keep this ta-ship for next quarter as well. certain ta's are being let go despite the fact that there will be even more sections meaning even more tas are needed, so i guess thats a good reflection on my performance so far.

i just got a sudden urge to play mario brothers, good thing im going to shoreland tonight, maybe i'll hit up ian to let me play his system for a while. that sounds like fun.

i had a really good weekend, frank took me out to Flattop Grill on friday which was really nice. then i spent saturday laying around and watching tv and not really being productive, but i guess thats ok on the saturday after midterms finish. sunday i got dinner with jake and had a bit of a chat with him, it went well i think, i hope the future outcomes of it are good as well, but it doesnt really involve me anymore, so we'll see. wow, i sound really cryptic. then sunday night i made scones with andrew k and then andrew y came over and ate them with us and we had a bottle of wine and watched Sports Night. it was fun.

now i need to teach this class in 10 minutes, then go to the shoreland to see some people, possibly play mario brothers (yes, the original), and do homework before bed. then class tomorrow until 8 and then i get to see frank, and then do it all over again.

the storm before the calm

I've been a bad person/student/friend/daughter/teacher/girlfriend recently. I need to change. I have decided to change.

It is time for the evolution to occur, it has been a long time coming. It will not happen overnight, it never does, but it will happen gradually. Isnt that what life is about? evolving towards something better?

I had a primates midterm friday - awesome (i think).
I had a physics midterm monday - not so much.
I had an anatomy paper due sunday - hopefully satisfactory, a lot more work than i imagined, but ultimately fun.
I have an anatomy lab practical tomorrow, apparently if i memorize everything, i'll do just fine.
I have to write more reviews for poetry, we'll see how that goes.

anyway, the evolution has begun, i'm spending the day in the lab working for my anatomy test tomorrow, hopefully i will go home at some point, i just dont know when.